2011

2011年的最后几分钟。
失眠了好几晚，只为了努力的想这一年的成就。
辩论比赛，不是亚军就是和人家分享季军，始终拿不到冠军；
课业，成绩一个学期不比一个学期。
没有了，我人生当中最重要的两项荣誉来源就只是这样。
又是个不值得留念的一年。

但是，这一年将会是未来回顾人生时的转折点，因为，我学会了——“肤浅”。

曾经说过，如果有一天，我真的可以混进身边这些圈子的话，那我就已经不是我。
这一年，在这个圈子里，
我，
学会喜欢这个圈子的喧闹，喜欢这一群人的吵吵闹闹；
学会为不好笑的事情大笑，说低俗的话语讨人喜好；
学会放下对时间的斤斤计较，牺牲时间和他人玩闹；
学会放下生命长远的目标，追求当下的喜好。
生活圈子宽了，竟成了今年最大的回报。

曾经以为这是成长的必要，但如今却经常思考，
迷失了原来的自己有什么值得骄傲。

人生

三语不通，无路可通。

Is this what you meant by 'critical thinking'?

I always wondering about this since the first day my lecturer emphasised on the need of 'critical thinking' in law students. What actually meant by that phrase? At first, I thought that when we argue something based on our very own reasoning, then we are thinking critically. However, after putting myself into this faculty which thinking critically is a necessary, the definition of 'critical thinking' seems to be contradictory to mine!
When I put my doubts on this point to the lecturer, the answer I got was that,
'it means you could not let the mainstream media to lead your reasoning', i.e. you are thinking critically when you object the governmental policies, ministries' statements and whatever the government says or the majority views. Put it in a simpler way, when government says 'yes' and the opposition parties say 'no', you must say 'no'; when the government says 'correct' and the opposition say 'wrong', you must say 'wrong'.
Somehow, I just feel like the government is not stupid, they are the people we vote into the parliament to protect our interests. The controvercy between their ideas and the opposition's arose is just because both parties consider the same object from different perspective.
But, sir, would I fail to become a student who you think are capable to think critically, when I argue for the government or agree with the mainstream argument?
When all the great thinkers, analysts, professors say 'the law is wrong', then I must agree with them in order to qualified myself to become a critical thinker?

Is this what you meant by 'critical thinking'?

人生没有对错

火车，
为了到达火车站，
就只能死守在轨道上。

人生，
为了达到目标，
就只能死守着人生规划。

道歉不能解决的事

难过的感觉常有，
导致难过的原因很多，
其中一个，
是--
当你令欣赏你的人对你失望。

这时，
道歉不能抚平心里的愧疚，
更不能重燃他对你的希望。

爱情片vs恐怖片

爱情片比恐怖片更可怕。

我不懂你用了多久拿下冠军，但我们用心用力拿下这个季军

输，这个字在我过去的人生里不曾缺席过。但这一次，它的出现狠狠地把我击退。

请不要问我“值得吗”，
请不要用冷言冷语回应我的“季军”，
我的眼泪经受不起这种挑战。
我的自尊心更接受不起这种调侃。